kjsdfgakjsgfakjgs first Ash and now you. EEEEEK. *stops herself from further kesmashing*

It's gonna be weird when you'll get your comments HERE, instead of the actual post. LOL I would reconsider it Ana. Cause I'm def gonna spazz over it and to you.. and ain't no disabled comments feature will stop me. XDDDD tsk. *glares at you Ryo style*

And that sucks about your job but at least it's a job? *pats* So.. *massages your shoulders* --> not that it would boost your social energy, but oh well..

Now I'm off to print the new chapter because trees die so I can has RK in my bed. *runs off*

♥♥♥♥♥♥

I almost forgot. *huggles you* The hug!fest is still on, after all.

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lol re reading my comment from last night.. wow. I'm so empathetic nowdays, it amuses me to no end. I apologize. XD
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:( So I read it last night and it converted me into a giant sad face. Which is of course good - you know, me being an M and all - but also so very not good, because I'm worried about these idiots. You demonstrated so well Ryo's way of thinking, me thinks. The way he practically decided inside his head how things are gonna go and how Kame is going to react and what they are going to do once the incident is forgotten and everything goes back to normal. But of course this is just his rational self rationalizing and translating everything into Ryo code and pushing everything inside Ryo box even if it won't fit anymore or even if it's a thing not for him to decide or push aside. :/ ..which is prob why, when the door opens, he apologizes because deep down he prob knew what he did wasn't gonna be easily forgotten and forgiven. ♥ :( That part with him getting angry at himself because of the romantic mood setting in the room? = ♥ Kame eating the dessert (=singlehandedly destroying Ryo's plan and obviously NOT forgiving him) and when he doesn't share.. Ryo should have known right then.. but lol, he goes angry and childish. Of course. Because he apologized (btw.. His fingers dug into Kame’s wrist urgently because he couldn’t say more than those three words, they were already too much, he was endangering his own sense of identity to say them, bad, putting his fucking personality on the line. --> ♥). Secretly I wish things would have turned out the way he wanted.. not because that would solve their problems, but because it's gonna be one fucked up ride for him to figure out how things really work in rl and with Kame.. and and.. I just hope he won't give up halfway and choose the easy way, probably out. :( The nonstuff. I hope soon he'll relabel it. And Kame. :( *sighs* This is the chapter when I want to go to the last page of the book to see if things will turn out good for both of them, that it's gonna end happily. :(

Edited at 2009-05-24 07:30 am (UTC)

What do you mean? *puzzled* You are so empathetic. Ok maybe not with the trees. But my shoulders love your empathy lots and lots. Also, I actually love my job lots ^____^. Ok so communication, like shit, happens, you know. It'd be the same with any other job. Or in everyday life. That lil' problem lies with me ^^"""".


These days have been rkplentiful, haven't they? *beams*. Now if only Johnny'd catch that virus of love! AWW. The Ryo Style Glare! You almost do it better than el Ryo himself :)))! Ah, but how to say this... in some weird way, I guess I need to keep disconnected from hmtmkmkm at this moment in time. It may be because the story's at a phase where it hurts to write? I'm afraid if I stop writing for a while, I'll just...stop though. So maybe my way of dealing with it is stay away from comments ^^""". I dunno.

I'm a bit weirder than usual these days, so don't mind me, ne ^^. I'm really okay with just posting the stuff. Perhaps I'm also afraid of hearing how bad the writing is. Or I'm even more scared that people'll be too nice to tell me. *insert list of convoluted hypotheses here*

Whatever. It's just fanfic!!! Even when it angsts it should stay FUN! *talking to self*

And LOL, it's all white so I almost missed your sneaked in response. You're so sneaky, Zsu. BUT SO AM I *huggles you sneakily* You have no idea of relieved I am that you don't think I totally disfigure Ryo's way of thinking.

I know it's all pretty depressing and uncertain right now, ne. But what I want is for it to get better for them. ^_______^ I'll gambatte in that direction as hard as I can.

:-*

I used to be more empathetic.. like.. the old me would have offered coffee and cookies as well, and a ppl killing device you could use whenever communication gets too troublesome. But now.. it's just massages. *sighs a dramatic sigh*
Oh, the job I'm not having at the moment but I'm still hoping to have one day pretty much excludes communication. Ok, not 100%, but I'm willing to small talk for assignments and payments. XD

I'm hoping Johnny noticed our need for the RK and this is why he sent him to the con. Or am I being delusional as always? ;p And what you say make sense. I don't even know how you do it but you're doing great with these characters. They feel so real and the reason to this is prob that you don't rush it. IT being their happy ending, of course. ;p I hope this is the bottom for them, though. And now I shall stop talking about them here.

Wait. Just one thing. IT IS FUN. FUNFUNFUN TREMENDOUS FUN. FOR ME, AS A READER. And I sure as hope it is fun for you to write it, even if we're at this rather dark part atm.

Yosh. Then I'll just thank you for finding a way to not stop writing this story.

Thank you. ♥

I'm glad to read what's up with you lately. I hope you won't stress yourself with too much work. *hugs*

I don't know if work's really to blame. I can, liek, autogenerate stress : it's my biggest talent ^____________^""". But thank you for the much-needed hugs. *hugsies also* And forgive me for not having commented on your posts lately even though I am always happy know where your life is at, too :-*

I assure you I never feel pressure to leave a comment on your journal. On the contrary, I'm forcing you to read my rambling and reactions to your fics whenever I comment ^___^

I hope you get use to communication more as months go by. It may get easier as you get more comfortable with your job.

t's like I overdose on human communication everyday and the second I'm done working for the day, why, hello Catatonia, shall we spend this evening together too? Sure. Yes, even on the web.

Same here, same here. I was always a quiet person even when I was a tiny baby. Working in an ice cream store and then working in a retail store, I'm force to greet people and communicate with them. Whenever I go on my break, I get grumpy when anyone who sell food starts a conversation with me. I just want to not talk when I'm on break. There's this stupid hotdog guy. He always talk so much and asking personally question. Everyone at my workplace avoid walking pass his stall. Can't he just sell hotdog without asking anything and everything under the sun. We all call him the creepy hotdog guy. Whenever I'm stress, I even avoid talking to people online too. I don't even want to go outside in case someone see me ._. Very anti-social.

Sometimes I exercise my mouth by moving my jaw up and down. I look mean easily, I have to remember to smile at customer.

Sorry to bust in on your comment but it made me laugh from beginning to end - what an annoying hot dog guy! XD There's a store in my neighborhood that's so convenient to stop at on the way home from work but I can't even go in there anymore because the guy at the counter tries to engage me in conversation every single time, just babbling nonsense and you can't get away politely. All I want to do is buy a couple bananas or whatever and get the hell out of there. So now I have to go to a store a few blocks further where a brusque, crabby, middle aged man works, who hates to greet anyone. In and out with no chitchat. Customer greeting is sooo overrated! lol

Don't worry, I jump into other conversation once awhile too :)

Your convenient store guy reminded me of this older uncle at the food court. At first, he couldn't just sell me food. No, he had to rambling about everything. Asking me about my school, the jobs out there, his vacation in Thailand, why did that woman who won the lottery couldn't just retire but instead open a food store. Sometimes he talked about the same thing he already talk before. One time I was grumpy due to a bad work day, I put on my Ipod and kind of grunt whenever he said something. When I'm unhappy, I look mean. After a few time, he kind of got the point. He didn't talk much to me anymore :D

I'm in a ranting mood, please skip if you don't want to read boring rants.

You feel my pain eh. Creepy hotdog guy. One time he even went to my store and said why didn't I dropped by for so long >:| Another time, I ran into him when I was getting water to mop the floor, he kept asking why I didn't visit him for so long(WTH, I only talked to him like 2 times at his hotdog stand). I told him I didn't like hotdog much. He said I should visit him anyway. He missed me x| Asked my phone no. 2 times. My co-worker told me a year before he dropped by the store in a hotdog wiener custom on Halloween asking why she didn't drop by too.

He didn't seem to understand that I was avoiding him. Everytime I walked pass his stall to go to the grocery during my break, he kept saying hi even though I pretend I didn't see him.

You're making me lol again with the mental image of hot dog cosplay. What's worse than an intrusive, overly talkative hot dog vendor? A giant, verbose, ambulatory hot dog, obviously! Yet another incentive for vegetarianism.

Yes, I do feel your pain. I have a long commute to work and even if my ipod batteries wear out I still keep the earbuds in. Sometimes that doesn't even help when strangers still try to talk to you and you make a big show of pretending you can't hear, taking them out, giving a monosyllabic answer, then putting them back in and the clueless oaf still keeps trying to engage in random conversation. It's not that I'm totally anti-social but I just prefer to choose the moments/people myself.

Speaking of which, please feel free to burst in with a rant any time you see my name pop up; it's very amusing to me...(from another who often gets told to smile more. >.<)

(Anyway, hope we're not spamming the comments section too badly now - sorry, KxK!<3)

Bananas uh? I bet it's a cute couple ^^

XD


Ah, us wannabe quiet people lead tragic everyday lives.

You ladies sound like you handle it in a really cool way. Like, DIE, PERSON, I AM BUSY. I don't actually often manage to brush people off, it's an art which eludes me. It doesn't show that I'm quiet I guess. So usually I sort of stand there and listen and miss the bus.^^


It's so funny that you go to the other store and then think Oh " brusque, crabby, middle aged man " how LOVELY TO SEE YOU. *giggles* I know what you mean exactly though. EXACTLY.

Maybe we could form a club.

We could sit there and just not speak, ne.

Now what is wrong with that idea I wonder ;P

So very tragic for us all xD I like not to talk a lot but I bet without these talkative people who like to talk people's ear off, my life may get a bit boring. There will less stories to tell and poke fun of (^_^) there has to be extremely talkative people to balance out the quiet ones. All is well on Earth. But I still hate talking to customers.

ah I wish I could brusque off people in a cool way but I can't. I'm too timid to tell people off._. If I have to wait for my food being cook, I keep saying um hum, okay, yes, or answers back in very short sentences. Being a saleperson, sometimes people tell me things I don't want to hear, especially depressing thing (¬_¬") Then I keep thinking about it all day long (;O;) BUTTTT I will not miss my bus because someone wants to tell me their live stories. oh I'm sorry I have to catch my bus. Then smile a fake smile. Why do I suddenly think of Forest Gump.

Our club will be the most quiet club ever. There should be couches because we probably take a nap too as one of our activities.

Beside saying hi to everyone who passes his stalls, he also says "hi princess" to every female regardless of their age. My manager hates whenever he calls her princess the few time she buys hotdogs from him. Even her husband doesn't call her princess, why is he calling her princess she complains to me. One time I heard he said "hi princess" and there were around 4 people who answered back. It was so funny.

You ladies sound like you handle it in a really cool way. Like, DIE, PERSON, I AM BUSY.

Nah, I'm not that cool. I do it in a nice way, I think. Well, I hope. As nicely as one can under the circumstances. lol
(The older you are, the easier it gets.)

You know, I probably lied a little : the comment whore in me is probably just taking a small break, and even then, mostly just regarding hmtmkmkm, and then she'll be back with a vengeance. But until then, thanks for being SO nice and understanding and reassuring and for making me smile and laugh omg.

*hugsies*


I LOVE your reactions. LOVE LOVE LOVE. If you hadn't been replying to a post of mine, I would have totally followed gummykid's example (*waves and verticalines at gummykid and still responded to this comment of yours. Because, for instance, The Creepy Hotdog Guy is too savoury too be resisted XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.Although it sounds like you resist him just fine XD.

I must also say this. This is the cutest thing I've heard in a while :

"I was always a quiet person even when I was a tiny baby."

*imagines*

That's unbearably cute.

I am in tears.....for real.....( erm, from hmtmkmkm, not from this post, I'm not that crazy)

Pats you. I'm sorry to hear that work is taking so much out of you.
I must assure you that we comment just cause we need an outlet and we need to worship you....so there's really no real obligation to reply or even read them in the first place. We understand that rl can be exhausting.

Ilu

I must assure you that we comment just cause we need an outlet and we need to worship you

YESSSSSSSS I agree.

^_______^"""""

:-*

Thank you for still reading hmtmkmkm and caring even at the lows. Ah. It always makes me feel all weird to know I've made someone cry.

Thanks for your reassurance ^^. I'm glad to know commenting isn't a part of the process you find annoying :))).

Just as you don't feel any obligation to comment, I've not ever felt any obligation to answer a comment : I WANT to answer, very much, and when I'm unable to do so to the best of my ability, as lately, I feel pretty sad :(.

hmtmkmkm has made me feel funny in a variety of ways recently, ne :))) So I'll just let it sleep quietly like this for a while longer. Please be indulgent with me and it and try not to mind. Hopefully, it ultimately doesn't matter much. I'm happy to post this way too and I hope you can still be happy to read this way?

*grateful hugsies*

P.S : ^_______^""" I am not worthy of worship. Seriously. Had to point this out. But you're seriously sweet. *chus*

I have an insane desire to hug you...

I feel kinda guilty now for always making demands on updates........really don't want to make writing less enjoyable for you.
Erm, shall not spam you with too many comments and make u feel guilty about not replying.

I happen to have this insane desire to be hugged right now ^_________^

HUG ME NE!

*doesn't wait and hugs you*

Don't feel GUILTY, GOD :O . NO. NO. Hey. I feel so lucky you want to read on. I truly do. Knowing you want to read on makes the writing enjoyable ^^. The fact that I'm a lil' complicated and don't deal so well with expectation or anythingm really is something else completely, just a me thing ^__^"""". Thank you for being patient with me :-*.

ilu

I can empathize with post-work isolation syndrome (PWIS? XD) bcs I turn into a veg when I get off work. A lot of the time I can't stand even answering my phone when it rings bcs I don't want to be drawn into conversation I feel too low energy to deal with - which makes friends and family more than a little annoyed with me. lol

Anyway, I am in severe need of catching up - I still haven't even read your last story, and your posts are usually a top priority for me! But there are no comments on the new pages? So I'll have to spam you with pics here next time I feel the need to share. Oh wait a minute - I feel the urge coming on right now - can you tell what I was looking at in these pics? (No, lower...lower. See what I mean?)





BTW have you been able to keep up with Kimono Kame lately? I was definitely reminded of Princess Kame while I watched a bunch of fancam clips from the BTR con on YT. Everything about Kame's solo is so fairy tale. The umbrella "floating" on the water is like some sort of vintage illustration. The unfurling white scrolls look almost like a special effect but that may be the YT low quality fuzzing everything and thus making it look better. lol I usually just laugh and cringe when Johnny's "fly" around on their wires, but in this number, it actually looks pretty.

This one has the best view of the twirling sparklers:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2hP-dQWr-8

YAY! It makes me feel better to know we share a need for isolation XD.

YEAH JUST SHUT UP AND MASSAGE US, PEOPLE.

Actually, that really also depends on the person, though ^___^.

Your friends and family are only annoyed because they crave your (I'm so sure it's lovely) company, obviously, so please be a little indulgent with them ^^.


OMG, don't mind about the comments ^________________^ The truth is I'm not quite sure why myself and it doesn't matter ^__^"""". Or about there being an appropriate place for you to share the piccies with me. HERE IS FINE. WHEREVER IS FINE. I DON'T CARE IF THEY KILL ME EVERYTIME. INDEED, KILL ME, KILL ME, KILL ME, KILL ME XDDD!

Gosh. Really. Thank you. Sock covered effin' wonderment.

I'm answering this after a day at work which was okay but somehow involved a dentist and, apparently, sock covered wonderment is sovereign to soothe one's tired person :)))

ilu.

I have only been able to keep up a little with Kame's soloing (thanks to Zsu it was), which may be lucky for my fragile heart ^^, but who cares, I want my heart shattered by Kame's twirls and exaggerated pouts, so now you, THANK YOU. Again. I would be a sad excuse for a fan without you, honest ^^. And. And.

WRITE ME RYOKAME?

Just. Your description of Kame's solo is on par with actually watching it, leading to my begging rudely like this ^^""" *putting all the blame on you, squarely*. You asked for my asking for it.

Hey you can't blame a fangirl for trying her luck.

Can you?

*verticalines you*

Kamesocks rule - too bad they didn't show him taking off the shoes. (The show's producers clearly don't understand the importance - and pleasures - of the shoe striptease).

Hope the dentist appointment went well. Don't you hate it when they make you wait in the office instead of the waiting room? At least in the waiting room you can browse through the wrinkly old magazines, but once they get you in that chair it's just deadly. I'm always avoiding my dentist for far too long due to the extreme boredom of sitting there strapped to the chair in his luddite office without any of the modern dental distractions I've read about like monitors on the ceiling etc; instead there's just a highly reflective glass covered panarama of Canadian nature on the facing wall. All you can see the whole time is the mirror image of the Dentist's hairy arms and geriatric ass bending over your gaping maw. Not a good viewing angle...

Yay for Zsu keeping you in the scroll! I've been hunting down every paparazzi pic I can find of that performance. On the way I also saw the ones below - not the same thing but had to share, bcs it's like sexface Kame + peekaboo centre. lol



WRITE ME RYOKAME?

*Looks behind, over both shoulders*
LOL I seriously thought you got two replies mixed up there! XD
If I had the skills, I would oblige that request in an instant; however all signs on the magic eightball point to the high likelihood that I would truly suck at writing RyoKame. Like Nakamaru's bungee jumping, it would be 75/25% fail. Ryo seems like he'd be impossible for me to attempt. I guess he's intimidating even on paper. haha
(Despite the extreme mypace-ness, I still intend to try drawing a couple of illustrations.)

In the meantime, here are vertical lines in the form of screencaps. (OK so it's pretty juvenile to be amused by a pack of dogs shoving their snouts into someone's crotch, but it reminded me of that ep with the schoolchildren, when Kame got groped a lot by those tiny clutching hands. Does he have a homing device in there?)

*pouts* No more comments? I actually like leaving comments, it's the only way I can communicate with pple on my flist (short of PM) and I read HMKMKMTM. It's getting.....sadder. )): I was hoping for things to be resolved actually, maybe it isn't gonna be so easy.

Sometimes I feel the same way too, about my job. Basically I have to liase with alot of pple and when I get home, I feel like all the words have been drained out of me. Dun be a stranger ok? I hope u enable comments soon. :P Take care.

♥

Awww, Ash, but you're SO CUTE when you pout, if going commentless results in something so cute, then commentless the LJ shall stay XDDD.

I guess I'll enable them again in time. Hopefully until then I can be a better commenter on my friends posts :))).

Thank you for still reading hmtmkmkm. I don't really know myself what to say about it :(, except that I want things to be solved and to be solved in a positive way eventually *positive thinking ON*. But it's awesome to know you're still reading in spite of everything :))) *hugs*

Thanks for commenting and caring.

You take care, too, ne :-*.

I shall friend both :D.

I never find commenting a hassle, but I know the feeling of just wanting to turn your brain off and not have to respond. Do what you need to do ♥.

Thank you :).

I'm very glad commenting isn't a hassle for you, because I appreciate your comments so very much. For real :))). And thank you for your thoughtfulness and empathy. I'm so happy you're on my f-lists, all of them ;p.

Dear Ana, thank you for your wonderful mind and your beautiful story. Yesterday I've just thought that I've been working on translation of HMTMKMKM for almost year and a half. And I just can't imagine myselfe without some kind of mental connection with it. It's story to read, story to think of and even to have one's heart slashed open and burnt with compassion.
I'd like to meet you one day and tell in words, not in computer symbols, what a wonderful and inmportant part of my reader's life your story became.
As for this new chapter - I believe, they have a future. Please, give them one :) I know, it's quite unpolite to make such a request for the author. I hope I can compensate with my love and respect for you.

OMG. I get so excited whenever I see it's you ^___^"""". Even though we perhaps don't speak much, I like to think we share this special connection through the fic, ne :))).

I could never have hoped when I set out to write this that I might touch other people in the ways you describe. It's surreal in the most wonderful of ways, and I'm incredibly thankful that you would open your heart and mind so completely to this story. Even after all this time has elapsed, I can still hardly believe your reaction today, you know.

I can never thank you enough for what you have done/do by translating hmtmkmkm into Russian. But I'd love to meet you one day, too, to at least try to thank you in person, Zua!!!

^________________________________________^

Sometimes a story decides on its own where it's going to go - indeed, I believe those are the best stories, the temperamental ones ^^.

But I firmly believe Ryo and Kame have a future together too, Zua. That is what I also want for them. And I promise, just as you've been giving your best working on translating the fic for a year and half already, I will give my bestest for them to have and hold this future of theirs ^_________________^!

*crosses her heart and hopes to die*

No more comments? ToT but I don't mind if you don't answer me back, I just want to thank you because is what must be done when a great person share something with you without asking for something in return. Because after reading the last chapter of hmtmkmkm I wanted to say that thanks to you I've been trying for weeks to make a RyoKame fanvid to thank you properly 'cause my English is so poor that I'm always at a lack of words to express myself.

So please, please, let me thank you when you write in the future (not only hmtmkmkm, but everything you write is great) because seriously, is the only thing I could do. I could´n even friend you because I have nothing to give you.

*hugs you tight*

You're love.

I'm so sorry if the fact I disabled comments has upset you. Please, please, you mustn't mind me and my complicated ways!!!! I guess the story is at a somewhat delicate stage right now, and I'm unsure whether I'm handling it right, and in order to keep writing I feel it's best if I stay a little aloof in regards to hmtmkmkm? But you don't have to worry about any of that, I beg of you. The main thing is just for you to enjoy the fic, ne ^________^. It goes straight to my heart to know you actually really want to leave comments. I'm bound to enable comments again sometime, you know : I LOVE THEM. If ever you really need to voice an opinion on anything or what in the meantime, commenting here or PMing me is fine :)))).

And...

OH. MY. GOD.

RYOKAME VID IN THE MAKING!!!!!

I think you express yourself much better than fine in English, you know. You Russian girls amaze me like whoa with your linguistic ease.

BUT IF YOU WANNA EXPRESS YOURSELF BY MAKING RYOKAME VIDEOS OF COURSE I WANT TO WATCH THEM.

See, this is me failing at expressing myself.

I am exponentially excited about this.

If ever you have the time to finish it, ah, that would be usfbfjsbnvjfnvknsdlfnvnjdfvjfdjfsjfdnvv.

*wants to see*

Thank you, so much, for everything :-*

...........errr, while I totally know exactly how you feel in regard to comments, being that I work in uber-communication industry too (and my work has been really stressful the last few months as well, which is the main reason I'm so far behind on LJ - I feel guilty reading when I'm not up to commenting, so I avoid the entire thing until I'm in over my head ;_;) but you're going to get them anyway, from me at least. XD; i'm not sure what I'd do if I couldn't flail while I was reading. definitely spam your email or lj private message inbox. or just, you know, comment here. XDD;;

*smooches you* I promise to never care how late you are at answering my comments. ♥

*runs off to read super-angsty chapter of hmtmkmkm* :D